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[交流] av女优的孩子长大以后看到自己母亲的片子会怎么想?

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av女优的孩子长大以后看到自己母亲的片子会怎么想?

av女优将来结婚生子,孩子长大了以后看到自己妈妈拍的片子,会是什么一个情况?和日本的文化之类的有没有关系?再比如张柏芝的艳照门,她孩子看到会怎么样,会不会造成阴影神马的?


不说孩子怎么想,就上一封AV女优妈妈写给儿子的信:
My Son,
As I write this, you haven’t yet entered the world, not due to be born until mid-December. By the time you read this you will be old enough to browse the Internet, old enough to like girls, and old enough to know the name “Aurora Snow.” I’ve dreaded this day for many years now and my hope is that you find this article before accidentally stumbling upon any pictures or videos that show your mom in a way she never intended for you to see. Let me explain.
Your mom grew up very, very poor. In early 2000, I was going to school at UC Irvine, and although I was a high school honor roll student, scored high on tests, and spent week after week filling out applications, I was still drowning in student loans. Frustrated and feeling my chance at a higher education slipping away, I answered an ad in the Orange County Register newspaper.
The large bold print caught my eye: Girls Nude Modeling—earn $2,000 per day.
I had no shame and needed the money. I knew for certain that I never wanted a family of my own. It was an age before everyone and everything was online, and I truly felt I could hide it from my mom, dad, and brothers. What did I have to lose? I planned to be in it for one year, pay back my student debt, and walk away without ever looking back. It didn't quite work out that way.
The attention made me feel good. The money was incredible. But even with the attention, I never felt pretty. I thought that at any minute they would realize they had made a mistake and ask me to go home and bring the pretty girl onto set. They never did. And that nude modeling job soon led to someone asking me to have sex on camera for money. Even more money. I said yes, and that choice led me down the very eventful and colorful path of adult filmmaking.
For reasons beyond my understanding, they kept asking me to do movies. Soon I was on box covers, posters, and even some mainstream TV shows. Your great grandma was the first to discover your mom’s secret profession (she saw me on a VHS tape at her friend's house), and she quickly informed your grandma and uncles. While they were disappointed with my choices, they never stopped loving me and stuck by me regardless.
Your grandma thought I should do something with my mind and not my body. She worried a lot about me and always hoped I'd find my way out. Though I never spoke about it directly with your uncles, it's always been the elephant in the room. Your grandpa was living in another state, and found out what I was doing when he saw me on the Howard Stern TV show. In retrospect, I was quite thankful I'd been one of the few girls on Stern's show to keep her clothes on. I maintained a sense of modesty when I wasn't on set.
By this point in your life, I hope I’ve taught you the importance of honesty, and so I’m going to be honest with you. I’ve done just about everything imaginable in my adult career and if you dig deep enough you will find things you might think are pretty awful. I can honestly say that I approached adult filmmaking as a job, and, like any job I’ve ever had, I felt it important to do my best. Sometimes doing my job well meant doing pretty gross things. Hopefully you never see that stuff.
Something truly life-altering happened on February 20, 2009. Your Uncle Keith was in a bad motorcycle accident and broke his neck, and his two young sons came into my care. I had no idea what to do with kids, but I was forced to learn as I took care of your cousins for a couple of years while Uncle Keith recovered. During that time, something changed. I felt something powerful happen inside of me as one of my nephews put his arms around me, trusting me with his life and giving me his unconditional love. Suddenly I realized, “Oh crap, I want a family of my own.”
I never believed in love and was scared to death of anything or anyone that could tie me down. I was a free spirit who could pick up and go at a moment's notice, but those feelings faded when I realized what I was missing.
My priorities shifted. I was no longer the girl willing to do anything, instead I became a woman with a goal.
Love
mom

中文:

我亲爱的儿子,
当我写这封信的时候,你还没出生呢,还要等到12月中旬你才会见到这个世界。当你能读这封信的时候,你应该已经足够大了,可以上网,可以喜欢女孩子,也能够懂得这个名字了:Aurora Snow。为这一天,我担心了很多年。我希望在某一天你偶然看到妈妈的照片和视频之前,能够先读到这封信。妈妈不想你看到那些,我会给你解释的。
在成长的日子里,妈妈很很穷很穷。2000年早些时候,我想去加州大学欧文分校上学,虽然我在高中成绩很好,得到很多赞扬,但我还是花好几个星期要填一大堆申请表,与此同时,我还背负着一笔助学贷款。那时候很失落,我感到上大学的机会已经慢慢溜走了,这时候我看到了县里报纸上的招聘裸模的广告。
我不感到羞耻,我需要钱。确切地说,我真没想过以后会要有个家庭。那时候,网络没有现在这么发达,很多东西在网上都找不到,我就以为我能隐瞒起来,爸爸、妈妈和哥哥们不会知道我去干嘛了。我要付出什么呢?我打算先做一年,还清我的助学贷款,然后就不干了,也不再回首。但实际上,我并没有这样做。
开始我觉得这是个好主意,毕竟报酬很丰厚。但即便如此,我心里感觉不太好。我以为,在某个时刻,他们会意识到他们犯了错误,然后让我离开,事实上他们从没有这么做。在那份做裸模的工作中,很快就有人要求我在摄像机前面和别人做爱。这样钱更多。我说,好吧,就这样,我走上了那条多变而又奇特的成人电影拍摄之路。
我也不知道为什么,他们还要求我去拍电影。很快,我就出现在装饰盒子、海报和一些主流的电视节目上。你外婆是第一个知道我的秘密工作的人。她在一个朋友家里看到了我的录像带,然后很快告诉了家里其他人。他们对我的选择很失望,但是也没有停止爱我、关心我。
你的外婆觉得我应该靠自己的脑子而不是身体。她很担心我,希望我能自己走出来。我从没有告诉过你的舅舅。你外公住在另一个州,他在霍华德·斯特恩的电视节目上看到了我,然后就知道我在做什么了。想起来,我觉得庆幸,我是在斯特恩的电视节目里穿着衣服露面的少数女人之一。不在台上的时候,我总是想保持诚实、质朴。
这里,我想告诉你,诚实是很重要的,所以我也会对你坦白。在我成人后的日子里我做了很多无法想象的事情,如果你追究的话,你可能还会发现更多可怕的事情。我可以向你坦白。我在成人电影这条路上的经历,像其他的一样,这只是一份工作,我尽量做好。有时候,我这种工作,越尽心尽力的做就越感到恶心。我希望你永远不要看到那些。在2009年2月20日,发生了很重要的事情,你舅舅在一次严重的车祸中受伤,于是我承担起了照顾他的两个小孩的任务。我不知道怎么照顾孩子,但没办法,只好一点点学习,一直到你舅舅康复。在那段时间里,有些事情改变了。我感觉内心发生了一些重要的变化,特别是当你的表哥们抱着我的时候,我觉得他们信任我,他们爱我。我突然觉得:“天啦,我也要有自己的家庭!”
我以前从不相信爱情,也害怕死亡,那些都让我感到似乎是滑向深渊。我曾经是那么自由,随时来随时走。但这种感觉逐渐消失了,我意识到我错过了很多。
我的想法改变了。我不再是那个什么都能做什么都想做的女孩子了,我成了一个有自己的生活目标的女人。我想要一个家,但首先我得找到组建这个家庭的另一半,这可不是一件容易的事儿。一个好朋友给我介绍了一个西部农场男孩,他也曾经混过娱乐圈,做过电视节目。他很有魅力,能给人温暖,重要的是他很顾家。
不过,要从一个干了近十年的工作中退出来也是很困难的,即便不管这是个什么工作。你父亲意识到了我的矛盾心理,他说:“你只管按那个弹出按钮吧!”我终于决定听他的建议,这一次,也是第一次,我感觉有信心有勇气有动力从那个工作中退出来。
儿子,我希望你读完这封信后,就不要去点击那些我拍摄的XXX视频和链接。我和你爸的选择,改变了我们的生活,虽然有时候不能很好的解释它。我选择了从那个很多人都不认可的行业退出。不管过去怎样,现在我选择了向我的儿子作些解释。最终还是要说的。在我决定要一个自己的家的时候,我就要做完全不同的决定。我不知道这是否就是最好的,但是我不会回头,既然选择了就要走下去。当你18岁的时候,你会觉得你知道未来是什么样,你似乎也能清楚地知道你想要做什么,但10年之后,你就会改变想法。
所以,记住,当你要做一个生命中重要的决定的时候,你得想长远一点,你得问问你自己,“我能一直这样生活下去吗?”我的答案在这封信中,希望你能明白。

爱你的,

妈妈
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  • by7azr 金币 +5 感谢分享,论坛有您更精彩! 2016-5-24 21:42

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这封信时美国的色情演员,应该叫PORN STAR才合适吧,我觉得日本的想法可能更开放一点,看见自己母亲拍的素人影片肯定不会很高兴,但如果一开始就不隐瞒,而是坦诚的说出来也不会有太大的事情吧,毕竟旧社会有过兄弟几个娶一个媳妇的事情,孩子也一样正常生活呀。只是不要突然发现母亲的身份,这确实是难以接受。而难以接受的更多来自于伪装和欺骗吧。

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据说现在中国还有地方是几兄弟娶一个来着

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其实谁还会留着10年前的AV?谁还记得20年前当红的女优是谁?不说别的,现在陈老师原版高清的全图都找不到了,这才几年啊!所以这都不是事儿,改头换面重新做人把过去藏在心里就好。

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一般都是震惊吧,难以接受。

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不管怎么说,每一个母亲都是伟大的,以为母亲能够直面自己难以吐齿的过去,为了孩子能够不在外人面前因为母亲而自卑,是毫无疑问的做出了全部的牺牲,值得尊重的,而且每一位为了活下去而艰难生活的人都是值得尊重的。

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对于孩子来说可能不在乎,但是孩子周边的人难免会嘲笑

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在日本人的观念里,那就是工作。
可能儿子还会为妈妈努力工作而骄傲。

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这个是国情有关系,日本的女优在日本来说就是演员,不是什么很见不得人的工作。所以被自己小孩看到了也没什么稀奇的啊

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我记得去年也看到坛子里有一个狼友发过这样一个讨论帖。职业问题,和社会开放程度也有关系的。在欧美和日本,色情行业的接受度,跟我们有很大的不同、。

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